So...I'm sitting here @ 1:30 in the morning watching Love&Basketball for the fourth time in two days and I've come to realize just how empty my life feels. Every time I watch it I think about the first time I saw it at the movies. I think about the person I saw it with and I wonder how in the hell did we grow apart?
Then I think about all of my friends dating and meeting new dudes. What is it about me that makes me so different from them? Why is it that dudes can approach them and not me?
Why do the ones who I consider fine continue to stare a hole in my face but never speak? Like am I that eye-boggling that you can't fucking speak to me?
And if ONE MORE person tells me that my time will come I am going to punch them in their throat!
I seriously doubt that anyone can relate to the way I feel almost everyday. I'm starting to think I'm just destined to be alone. And until I have more smiles than tears, I'm going to continue to wonder "Will I ever?"